I could see right thru the fortress' walls,
I knew what they enclaved
Beaten by an ocean full
of canary-yellow waves
They glistened like the stars reflected
from a moon-lit sky
Scattered like a million diamonds,
it's beauty; mesmerized  
Tho seaweed dark as Forrest green
did fill the ocean floor
Both translucent, & befuddling 
I could only wish to explore
For I have never seen a castle 
rest in a sea of grime 
& with its image now engraved
Forever in my mind! 
& tho it's walls we're callous; thick
I thought it could still work
If only I had persisted 
(Instead, I went berserk...)
But is love not an incendiary?
To those who've gone insane?
& so it's best to resist the urge--
Your heart you must contain!

The Cottage

It was definitely winter time as I trotted thru a foot of  snow
My eyes were locked onto the sky, my self-esteem was low
& yet I made it thru the field, where daffodils once swayed
The Cottage laid 100 yards before me in mid-day
It's shutters had all fallen off, & only one remained
It's door was busted, rusted--all swallowed in  decay
& yet I forced my entrance & stood  in disarray 
(The fact of the matter is, I liked it better this way...)
The arms of the rocking chair were worn down to the bone
The pots & pans & tupperware were splashed around the home
At least a home it used to be but that was long ago.... 
It seems it's one-time owner was knocked far from his thrown
The windows were all busted out by rocks that laid the ground
The frost had overtook the place by more than heaps & bounds
It was obvious there'd been no visitors for more than many years
The less than freezing temperatures had made this crystal clear
& as I stood there shivering, thinking of the day
When this sight that laid before me was filled with sun & play
The Cottage was so perfectly constructed in this way
Children had once filled the field where daffodils once swayed
& now I had returned to complete my mission from the start
The plan, unfolding perfectly--The destruction of my heart.

I Will Not Rest

You talk of loneliness so frequent in your speech,
You talk of loneliness as if it's company, you beseech.
You say you search for light & truth
Integrity--it grounds your roots
You rarely talk but when you do,
It's loneliness that torments you?
It occurs to me that you are blind!
I will not rest until you're mine!

 But wait...

Your heart is one I've seen before
So fragile & vacant at its core...
I couldn't live with that bloodshed on my hands
(Yet, that hasn't stopped me with any other man)
But your's is one I will respect
So, from the shadows I will protect!
I'll be your angel in disguise
No one will harm you; They'll be denied!

A saddened day with us apart
Tis better this way--to guard your heart!
You are my God, my Love, One Soul!
Do not fear, my Dear, you're never alone!

I

Got

A Rotating Black Hole

I once was a beautiful neutron star

Gleaming so bright, you could see from afar

But then my star collapsed & died

& an astrophysical object derived...

It shredded my light & vacuumed me in

Never to be seen or heard from again

But as my flames began to ensue

I discovered the entities undeniable truth!

It appeared my light was being reflected from its core

Emitting a feeling I could not ignore

So, I relinquished my fears & spiraled down like a drain

Realizing that space/time can never be changed

Pass the first event horizon was the radius of no return

Where time stand still, lessons are sure to be learned

Because once I reached the tempestuous light

It repulsed me back with an inconvieble might!

I may never see the outside world again

But the grandeur of our love was worth it in the end

& so it must be:

Angular momentum, nonzero; uncharged

Is by far the greatest result of a dying neutron star

Self-mutilation

I think I'd like to pierce a vein

Watch it bleed & feel the pain

I think I'd like that very much

So much more than I lover's touch

A lover's touch is unbeknownst to me

I know I'd rather watch me bleed

Pain is always been a friend of mine

Bc I'm certain it's the end of time

Nonpartisan

I'll tell you what I think today

Of this "soul-creator"

I think that He's a selfish fool

An arrogant dictator!

First, He forces us to live

Outside of our control

Watching as we propagate

The confines of this fishbowl

Then He says to worship Him

Or we all shall be condemned

To blindly kneel before His feet

His word, we must defend?

I tell you that does not remind

Me of a mighty being

For being so omnipotent

He's not very agreeing....

For, the only God I could love

Would never ask me to

He'd never force unto me

Things He, Himself, won't do...

He doesn't have to show His face

He does not seek conviction

He would not leave a mortal trace

No need for crucifixion

Now, I am not an atheist

Their arguments are lacking

But if there really is a God

Wherever He is, He's laughing!

Because no man can know His thoughts

They cannot speak for Him

So, to me, religion's just as lost

For, we all have been forsaken!

Now whether this God does exist

I'm afraid we'll never know

But Whoever created all of this

Did not do it on His own

So, before you believe a man-made God

I'd ask you to think twice

We do not need an eternity

To be appreciative of life!